Day Three

Today was day three of trying to be a more positive me.  For the most part, I’m claiming success.  There was tension when I blew not one but two fuses in the truck.  This meant that not only could I not charge my phone while we were running errands, we couldn’t open the back gate to put groceries in the truck.  Then there was the typical tension of a tired 4 year old testing her limits on the way home.

Even more than feeling calm, I’m really digging the little bits of organization and accomplishment I’m seeing.  I have NEVER been organized, just ask my parents.  My room was always a mess, I could never find anything.  Now, I’m finding places for things in my house and I’m making lists of what I hope to get done.  My living room is still clean (quite possibly a record), my bathroom has been cleared of all of the almost empty bottles, the kitchen sink is getting lonely without dishes keeping it company every night, and the coffee pot is an early riser, ready to greet me in the morning.

That brings up another point, I’m waking up in the morning!!!  Yes, I realize most of us do, and I also realize many people are morning people.  Me, I’m a sleeping people, or at least I was.  The past couple of mornings, I’ve been up bright and early without an alarm clock.  This would probably shock my dad and step-mom since I was the one who got in trouble for “multi-snoozing” when we first moved back to Wisconsin.  I’m not sure if I’m sleeping better because I’m not thinking about my messy house or if I’m not sub-consciously dreading getting out of bed only to be greeted by my clutter.  Either way, it’s nice to wake up and enjoy my morning coffee instead of having to race out of the house to get to work on time.

The Next Generation

Tackling It From a Different Angle

I went back to working fulltime when RJ was only 2.5 weeks old.  My job is stressful, I had double mommy guilt, we had taken Khaila out of daycare, the list of contributors to a downward spiral goes on and on.  Soon, every aspect of my life was suffering from my negativity.

For this week’s “Tackle It Tuesday”, I am not choosing a household project, although that’s part of what has happened.  I’ve decided my tackle for the week is my attitude.  Yesterday, I sat at work dreading what was to come.  It was the calm before the storm and I was sure something big was building up.  Then and there, I decided that I needed to change my outlook.  I decided I was going to have a good day no matter what came my way.

First, the ice maker at work broke, meaning I had to call the boss for authorization to fix it.  Next, I found out we had to order four times what I was authorized to order if we wanted the price break.  This meant another call to the boss to tell him I was spending money that doesn’t come in as quickly as we need or would like.  While this already sounds like a true Monday, it was only starting.

Next, I had two disgruntled employees working with me.  I hate when I’m trying to stay positive and I have so much negativity around, but I managed.  After that, I realized I might not have anyone coming in for the evening shift.  When I called the employee who was scheduled and had called off his previous two shifts, I was told he had car problems and that he could come in even though the wheels may fall off his car at any time.  Since driving IS his job, I told him we’d get by without him.

After all of that and a nasty bug landing on my head, I was still letting it all roll off my back.  Not only that, but I had more energy than I’ve had in a long time.  I came home, cranked up the music, and cleaned the living room.  This may not seem huge to many people, but I had a serious case of CHAOS going on in there.  For those who have never tried FLYLady, that’s “Can’t Have Anyone Over Syndrome”.  By the time I was done, I loved the room enough to post a picture on Facebook.  After that, I made dinner, loaded the dishwasher, and did two more loads of laundry.

This morning, I realized the power of yesterday’s day of positivity.  I woke up refreshed, ready to get to work, ready to enjoy the morning with my family.  Today was day two of my attitude makeover.  I may not be a changed person yet, but I’m definitely changing.  I will always be unperfect, but I’m hoping to face this phase of my journey head-on and come out a better person for it.

I dare anyone to tackle their attitude and try to get through a day or two refusing to let anything get them down!